Wednesday, February 28, 2007, 2/28/2007 08:35:00 PM
FINALLY IM POSTING.bloggish feeling level is at quite a minimum so bear with me k?
NEW YEAR WAS FUN,& NOW THERE'S ALL THE CASH TO SPEND, ALTHOUGH I HAVE NOT MUCH LEFT NOW ):
i've taken my life into check lately. i've done some things wrong, some right. nice to say i've righted most of those wrongs already. the others, well, still working on it. GOD, you have no idea how much i would appreciate it if i could just talk to you face-to-face right now. i need someone who wont judge me. and maybe tell me the truth of what i'm doing. whether i'm right or i'm wrong. whether it's love or selfishness. only YOU can answer that.
went for the first training aft cny(: i was exasperated by some MF.SHUT UP WHEN U DUNKNOW ANYTHING LA BITCH! aft awhile i cooled down get into some serious business.60 sets of staircase run.so happy la.at least it speed up the process of slimming down(:
so here we go again. when it involves three people. i'm always at the losing end. and i really do feel like a loser now. and its funny how everytime we fight. it won't turn out so bad in the middle. and the end is always unpredictable. i was super emo last night. and i ended up crying myself to sleep. i swear.i almost died last night. so the next time you all see me. i might be on tv. for being dead.unnaturally. yeah.maybe i'll get banged down by a car. cause remember when i say.its all going to be over soon.
i'm proclaiming to you all. cause i'm on the brink of a breakdown. but i can't cry. i just dont know how to let it out. cause i dont know what exactly am i going through. i want to cry.but the tears won't come out. and the fucking radio isn't working. i'm not going to cut. i'm not going to throw things around. i won't punch the walls. i won't keep to myself. i just won't.
im still going emo for you. fuck. when it isn't supposed to be.
im going to fail A maths so badly. and i haven get my crumpler,levis shoe and NICE tops. oh well. shit happens.
eat,shit and sleep. guess who is it? i don't help those who give a fucked up attitude.so change that attitude of yours first.